Of buses, beauty queens, and 21 grams

At any given time, we always count how much we've won and how much we've lost (especially if you're a self-confessed economist). It's easy to count earnings and winnings if you're talking about money or practically everything. But why is it so hard to count the losses? Because at the end of the day, we can't quantify it. We just wish we never lost anything. 


So many events happened in the last 168 hours. Worked for 60. Slept for 40. And what happened in between I try to measure to recount if I gained or lost something. And one look in the mirror says that I've gained a lot in the past few weeks. Weight, that is. Losing this is probably something I'd be happy about. But we all know we gained and lost much more valuable things in the last week than flab and fats. 


For the optimists, the good news is the economy grew by 7.9% in the second quarter of this year, above all consensus and economists estimates. And contrary to what PNoy argued ranted about in his first SONA last month, GMA did need to front-load all the spending needs of the government during the first few months of this year to boost the economy. Even the prophet of boom conveyed that "it would be a sin if GMA didn't do that in the first place." And we all have to thank GMA for a job well done, but "spending millions and millions in a single district in Pampanga" is another story. The market rejoiced at the robust GDP showing, a pleasant surprise for us. And it's up to PNoy and his minions to sustain this kind of momentum. 


I don't know whether to consider Venus Raj's anti-climactic ending to the Ms. Universe campaign as a "major-major" victory for us or a "major-major" shortcoming. The entire thing was filled with drama like a telenovela when Ms.Philippines was called last in the top15-10-5. The gorgeous (but a little exotic for my taste) Venus stole the show up until one of the Baldwin brothers was tasked to ask the ill-fated question that caught our bet off-guard. It was obvious by the classic deflection maneuver--thanking Mr. Baldwin for the question and addressing the crowd. (for the record, I am all for Ximena Navarrete as Ms. Universe. just wow.) But at the end of the day, it was a warm feeling that Venus ended up in the Top5--the highest since 1999 when Miriam Quiambao fell on stage and actually bagged the first runner-up title. For the record, many people feel Ms. Quiambao also faltered in the Q&A portion which begs the question: are Filipinas cut out for impromptu Q&As and speeches? (maybe this is why it's sometimes so hard to get straight answers from girls generally when asked about.... oops never mind)


But what really shocked me during the past seven days was the sudden and tragic demise of another beauty queen, Melody Gersbach. I was never close to Mel but I am around many people who were practically sisters with Mel, and I know many people value her friendship so much. We are in the same DWTL community and for what it's worth we really just lost gained an angel. This is what I am talking about. We really can't quantify how much we've lost especially if it's (or in this case, she's) something(/one) dear to our hearts. The WWJD family offered mass for Mel, and I was--as well as a lot of people-- holding back tears as we sing One Bread and Kaibigan for Mel one last time. Also almost cried when the eulogies were read. I can never understand why something like this happens, but I know as much as you do that everything happens for a reason. God has plans for us and those left to drift the earth for years more must move on and make the best of it. I'm sure Mel had the time of her life, and she lived the 4th day to the fullest. "I never said it would be easy, I just said it would be worth it." Basta ikaw, Mel.


I have nothing but hatred for bus drivers who think they can rule the road, take your lanes, and care about nothing but themselves. So many tragedies involving buses that I am starting to think that driving alongside buses might be as fatal as having a heart attack or an aneurism. 41 died in a bus crash about 10 days ago, who knows how many more died in five-or-so bus accidents I read about earlier this week. Someone please teach those reckless drivers a lesson! Mel did nothing wrong. And most accidents happen because no one but the bus driver made a reckless (and should be avoidable) mistake. geez.


Speaking of buses, 8 people died in a highly-televised 14-hr hostage taking by an ex-cop of a tourist bus. I can't even begin to describe how awful the whole situation was. It's too painful to watch, and we not just lost tourists, but potential tourists, a good and working relationship with HK and China, image, jobs for OFWs, and a lot more. The only winner in this fiasco was the so-called "free" media, who by all means catapulted us into CNN and CNBC fame while giving us an exhibit of "responsible" journalism. And where are all the celebrities and politicians who could have been there to salvage the situation and offer some "star-striking" power to the shutter-island-bound ex-cop? I bet if this hostage-taking happened before the May10 elections, it could have donned another ending. Oh well, lesson learned (I hope). And sorry, no tears or Q&As or hearings can bring those things we lost to justice. 


So how much really have we gained? How much have we lost? In 168 hours, we gained some. We lost some. That's the deal right? We can never explain how much really. One of my favorite movies of all time, 21Grams sums it all up. And I quote Sean Penn as Paul Rivers:


How many lives do we live? How many times do we die? They say we all lose 21 grams... at the exact moment of our death. Everyone. And how much fits into 21 grams? How much is lost? When do we lose 21 grams? How much goes with them? How much is gained? How much is gained? Twenty-one grams. The weight of a stack of five nickels. The weight of a hummingbird. A chocolate bar. How much did 21 grams weigh?  


Really, life may be worth 21 grams. To friends and families of Mel, and all the victims of bus accidents, and the hostages of that ill-fated bus, 21 grams cannot be measured. I wish it is easy to quantify but in the end some things are just priceless. Some things we really can't afford to lose. 


For me, screw the flab and fats. I'd gladly gain 100x 21grams anytime if it means bringing back those lives. If it means recouping all those losses.